PGP

School's about to start, and with the beginning of the new year will come the beginning of a new Professional Growth Plan.

They drive me nuts.

The reason is, our former principal always made us write one professional goal and one personal one. Then at the end of the year, we would meet and look at the goals and decide whether the goals were met or needed to be carried over into the next year. Last year, for example, my professional goal was to continue to plan with 5th grade regular ed. team, and plan lessons to team teach with them. Achieved. But my personal one was to figure out how to balance school and home. And I have a feeling I'll be working on that one until I die. Carried over.

Carried over goals frustrate me. I should choose something easier, like pay off debt. Or achieve world peace. Or get the daggone kitchen trim finished so I could put the refrigerator back and get it out of the way so I don't stub my foot on it every. single. morning. Those are at least quantitative, and I'd know when I reached them.

I'm kinda feeling like my prayer life is like that right now. Carried over. Like, I should have something to show for all the amount of time I spend praying about the SAME things. I pray for a quiet spirit. To care less. (I know, but I'm too sensitive. Really.) To be a quick learner of what it is that I need to learn, and to be faithful to apply it. To give more where it matters, and not where I shouldn't. To love the unlovely. And I am still the most stubborn, not quiet, slow learner out there who misses opportunities all. the. time. It's frustrating. And it doesn't matter where I go...the flaws follow, and my need to turn them over DAILY follows, and for once I would just like to trade prayers with someone else. Who needs to pray for more spirit, or a softer heart. Then I could check something off. Achieved.