Imperfect!

One of my favorite bloggers, Kacie, has a great post today about being imperfect. And not feeling guilty about it! :-)

It was timely for me. Not the fear that I'm perfect (duh!), but the reminder to not feel guilt for not being so!! Is that just a Mom thing? The guilt? I worry all the time that I'm messing my kids up for life--by working, sending them to the schools they go to, not making them eat more celery, or choosing the wrong vaccines. Not to mention wondering if they're getting the really important stuff--those things you really need to know to define a worldview. Are we intentional enough in teaching them? Are we TOO intentional? What if they grow up rebelling against everything we teach them?

I don't worry for a minute that any of you who read here think I've got it all together. Most of you know me in real life. You know that I have been known to wear my bathing suit as underwear when the laundry got too far behind, that I cry when I feel strongly about something, that I am a terrible dancer but try anyway, that I forget things like I'm 80 years old, that I'm shy until I get to know you, that I'd rather swallow glass than present at a faculty meeting or in front of other adults (though I'm silly in the classroom) and how naive I can be. It's also humbling to know that some of you know all the other "stuff." The stuff you don't publish in a blog that makes for lifelong struggle and a constant need to rely on God. So. Very. Flawed. As I get older, I'm learning that I'm not the only imperfect person out there....but I'll confess, it sure is affirming to have friends who are also transparent enough to admit that they struggle. (Book club friends, I heart you!! Heehee!) And it's funny, sometimes, to find out what others think of us.

Yesterday, our custodian was in my classroom, and she asked me about my brother. Tears spilled over immediately (I HATE that!!! I wish I could change that!!). I asked her why she asked, and she said she can just tell when something's going on, and she told me she's been praying lately. Then she said, "Isn't it funny how people who seem to have it all together have the same issues and heartbreaks as the rest of us?"

Seriously? She thinks I have it all together?
I don't. Not even close.
Read Kacie's post. Then read her mom's comment below. So wise! We all have balls we juggle. It's nice to know we aren't alone in that! :)